Put phone away all day. 

idk what im about to write about. This could be one of the most senseless blog post that I probs ever wrote but idk how I feel right now. Im bored, dont wanna be at this school, and just want it to be summer. I wish things that could be perfect, I need to sometimes need to listen to my own advice but thats almost impossible to do with the things that I have to deal with. I feel that everyone says that they are there for me but I really trust very few people. If I do trust you thats a big thing, cause I rarely let people know about me cause I just put a wall up. Some people say I wear my heart on my shoulder but thats how I am and I dont know if that’ll ever change. So done with being screwed over, people not appreciating me, taking advantage of me, feeling that Im just a toy. Everyone seems to do that to me, idk what it is about me. Its not anyone its just everyone, everyone must see the sign on my forehead saying that Im actually a nice guy. Maybe I should be an asshole? Nah i couldnt even do that if I tried. Its not me. Like I said this makes no sense not even to me, just in the lounge bored, dont wanna do my work, just wanna get out of this school .Ive had enough of it, the people, everything. If I could I would seriously go home now and not look back till september. 

Whether you realize it or not, everyone in life has expectations from their relationships…it’s normal to want something from the people in our lives. It’s also healthy to be in reciprocal relationships of give and take. But our expectations can often be way out of whack when it comes to our partners.In a mature relationship, there is a balance between what you expect and what your partner can realistically deliver for you. Both want to feel accepted for who we are while allowing for the wants and needs of the other and doing the best we can to respond to those needs and wants. Both  want fairness, equality, harmony, compassion and understanding about differences and similarities while being accountable for both. It is about the effort we make to do those things that are important to our mate that matters most. In all things there needs to be room for glitches, foibles and flaws. There is no perfect system.

Friends. A simple word isn’t it? It’s uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren’t that, they’re the people that touch your hearts. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They’re the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don’t judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles. You’re tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.

This is why I have very few of these. Cause friends who you can actually TRUST are hard to come by. 

When know one else believes in u , I will.

They are honestly the most confusing creatures on the planet. There are times when they know what they want, times where they don’t know what they want, and times when something perfect could be right in front of them and they just don’t take advantage of it. But then they get upset when they are hurt, and don’t understand why they can’t ever be happy. Well, for starts you’ve got to be happy with yourself before you can be happy with anyone else or things are never going to work out. Lets start with taking off the makeup, eyelashes, fake nails and dying the  hair every possible color. I don’t see whats wrong with actually being yourself. In case you weren’t aware guys actually find it more attractive for a girl to be herself. It makes him feel like he can be more comfortable with you.  The occasional burp, is cool I mean I wouldn’t overdue it lol. Girls just don’t realize that there are some good guys out there that could sweep them off their feet, but if they would stop looking for a “type” or trying to fill a “standard” they would get someone that could seriously make them the happiest girl ever. They say treat your women they same way you would want someone to treat your daughter. Thats all I’m trying to do. Guys may try to make you jealous by showing models, they are hot, but realistically we know we will  never get with them . Thats just how guys are. Just wish girls would see from a guys perspective,  sometimes. Its not as easy as we make it out to be. 

Just gotta get away.

I need someone that won’t give up on me, someone who I CAN talk to about everything. Someone that actually cares about what  I say…

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